& Saturday, March 04, 2006
Is Dis The End?...
Haven been out 4 3daez in a row nw.Dunno y bt I don feel lyk goin out..
Dherez soo many tingz Ijal said 2 mi yest thru SMS dat realli2 hurt mi.He suddenli said,"B,wat if I wil leave u 1 dae?".Nw..Wat do u make out frm dat?Frm ma opinion hez lyk sayin dat he WIL leave mi 1dae.Yeah I noe dat nuttin lasts 4eva n dat gd tingz orwaez come 2 an end somhw.I wun deny e fact dat our rltnshp myt nt work out somwae or anoder.I noe dat 1dae,I'd hafta face e dae dat Ijal myt walk out on mi.Bt itz a risk Im willin 2 take..
I noe i hafta b open 2 possibilities.Bt y did he hafta sae such tingz?Doesnt he noe dat hez hurtin mi soo much?Itz lyk S if hez havin 2nd totz in e rltnshp.We've gone 2 far 2 turn bak nw.Im afraid thinkin dat he myt leave n I'd b facin anoder heartbreak again.Bt hey!I love him alot n Im willin 2 work doubly hard on our rltnshp.Bt if we stil don work out in e end,I'd b happi enuf 2 noe dat I've tried ma bez 4 us.Cnt he do e same?..
He den went on 2 sae dat all gerlz r e same,juz dat dey hv diff attitudez.Hez comparin mi 2 his Xs!Sayin dat gerlz r full of swt tok.No offence ah!Bt arent guyz e onez hu r full of swt tok?Gerlz usualli don hv e tym 2 swt tok.We get straight 2 e point n we r honest.He has known mi long enuf 2 noe ma character.Hw cn he sae dat Im e same S all his Xs?!Hey!I don busted ppl lyk hw dey busted u k?Im soo disappointed 2 hear him sae dat.I've been his gerlfren 4 more den a mth nw n we've been frenz since I was stil wif Diddy.Imagine hw long dat was!N nw hez tellin mi dat he doesnt noe mi wel enuf?Don crap ard here,boi!..
Den he said dat hez been hopin til nw dat nuttin comez between us cx he doesnt wanna lose mi n dat Im his onli 1.Hez soo contradictin!Den if he doesnt wanna lose mi,hw come hez nt puttin in alotta effort 2 make our rltnshp work out?I don undastan.Im tryin ma bez here 2 b a gd gerlfren 4 him,som1 whom he cn confide in n cn depend on 4 juz abt anitin.Bt hez juz nt havin enuf faith in mi!Hez nt lettin mi in!I noe hez afraid 2 admit dat he lovez mi cx he noez dat hu eva hez wif,e rltnshp wun last long.Hez stereo-typin here!Cnt he gimme e benefit of e doubt n stop comparin mi 2 his Xs?..
He dint even sae dat he loves mi,lyk he usualli did @ e end of e msg.Nw hez gt mi crackin.I feel super insecure rite nw.Im suddenli afraid 2 love him whole-heartedly lyk I used 2 cx somhw,I cn sense dat hez gonna leave mi
SOON.I hafta bak off a lil so dat wen he finalli does walk awae,I wun feel so hurt.I nv imagined dat our rltnshp wud b on shaky groundz so soon.I dunno.Itz all up 2 him nw...
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