& Sunday, March 05, 2006
All That I Eva Wanted...
Sooo much has happend within e laz few daez.Feelingz I tot I had r suddenli fadin awae.E person I tot I loved is suddenli walkin awae.I guez I was in fantasy world wen I was wif him.Nw reality shook mi hard n Im finally awake.Im seein tingz clearly nw.
Itz juz puppy love.Datz all dat ever was between us.Hw cn he walk awae nw dat I nid him more den eva??Isnt a boifren supposed 2 b dhere 4 u n support u in tymz of difficulty?Bt where is he?..
Evryting elz seemz 2 b wae more important 2 him den I m.I noe dat hez gt plenty of probz in his head rite nw.Bt I realli wanna help!I wanna b dhere 4 him!Bt hw M I 2 do dat wen hez pushin mi awae incesantly?I cnt get thru 2 him no more.Itz amazin hw a few hrs cn realli turn our rltnshp 360 degreez ard.I don rememba gettin into a fight wif him or doin or sayin smthg dat made him angri..
Mayb he juz doesnt love mi animore.
Maybe he nv did,aniwae.I noe dat I loved him alot once.Bt if u were 2 ask mi nw whether I stil love him,I dunno wat 2 sae.I realli don hv e ans 2 dat animore.I dunno watz rong wif mi.Hw cn ma feelingz fade juz in an instant?Datz soo unlike mi..
I tot dat he'd b e 1 2 change mi n dat we cn work 2geder 2 create e rite rltnshp.Nw all ma drmz,ma hopez went dwn e drain 2geder wif e rltnshp dat I tot I built so wel.Smthg went rong,I noe bt I juz cnt seem 2 find wat it was dat wreckd e rltnshp.Izit som1 dat came between us or izit smthg dat made him fade into e distance??..
Wateva e ans may be,I noe 4 sure dat he aint hangin ard much longer.If we survive e whole of e nxt few daez 2geder,I tink Im considerd lucki.Haiz!Dherez stil sooo many tingz 2 b workd out between us n if we realli wan 2 b 2geder,alotta patience is nided cx solvin our probz n gluin bak e rltnshp isnt an easi task.Mayb we'll nt make it thru,mayb we wil.Hw I wish dat it wil b e latter bt somhw,smthg's tellin mi dat it wil b e former..
Ma faith in us is realli shakin rite nw.We r standin on super shaky groundz.Dunno if we'll make it thru.Even if we do,I don tink our rltnshp wil b e same S wat it used 2 b.E cloz bond we shared is destroyd.Itz pretty obvious nw.Nevertheless,I'll try 2 remain strong 4 e sake of our rltnshp,4 him,4 us.Bt dhere aint no guarantees.Im prepared 2 face e dae wen e word
BREAK myt juz come out frm either of our mouths..
I don even noe y Im serious wif him.Cx no matter hu Im wif,b e guy gd or bad,ma rltnshps nv laz long.E longest mayb 2mths.Datz all.Bt usualli e rltnshps nv survive longer den a mth.I shuda seen dis comin.I shuda known betta den 2 put ma 100% into dis rltnshp.Somhw,I've broken ma own rule n nw I hafta face e music...
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