& Tuesday, January 17, 2006
Im Nt Ok (I Promiz)
Itz e 17th of Jan 2dae n itz supposed 2 b our 1mth anniversary.Sad 2 sae,itz oso e dae of our break up.I went out wif Penyu yesterdae cx he sent mi 2 e Doc's.I was so lukin 4ward 2 2dae cx I cnt wait 4 us 2 celebrate our firz mth anniversary bt I guez dat aint gonna happen nw.Wat Amy did 2 mi realli crushd ma heart into pieces.Dis is e extreme I cn take.Hw cn he plae behind ma bak?!U guyz wil nv undastan ma position rite nw.Im nt gonna sae wat Amy did cx itz onli gonna hurt mi even more thinkin abt it.U myt sae dat itz a small matter.Wel,ITZ NT!I cudn tink straight yest nite.Wen Im strezd,I don drink alcohol bt I drink e blue can redbull.Itz enuf 2 make ma whole world spin ard mi.Had veri high feva due 2 e sudden rush of energy caused by e redbull.Swallowd dwn 3 capsules of panadol extra @ 1 go.Dunno wat I was doin.I was BROKEN.Hw cn he stil hv e cheek 2 cal mi earli dis morn n pretend dat evrytingz fyn wen ITZ NT?!!Nuttin wil eva b e same animore.Ma head is stil throbbin rite nw.Feel lyk dyin of emotional torture sia!Im goin out later 2 find Amy n perhapz catch him red-handed wif his new gal.Itz e hardest ting I'll eva hafta do bt I gotta do it.BROKEN!!!Itz gotta end NW!!He dint hafta b so mean 2 mi!Wat did I eva do rong 2 deserve sucha treatment frm him?It hurtz soo much 2 love him e wae I do n turn ard 2 luk @ him n realize dat he doesnt giv a fuckin damn!Yeah Fadzil,ur rite.I cn nv trust him.Thx 4 makin mi realize dat.I dunno hw 2 face him later on.Wat wil I do or sae 2 him in front of her?Wil I b strong enuf 2 face him witout sheddin a single tear?Wat he did wil orwaez remain wif mi til e dae I die.Nv wil I believe anoder guy in ma lyf animore.Im dyin insyd rite nw.No1 wil undastan.Im in dis battle alone.I hope tingz wil turn out wel later on..
IM SEEKIN SOLITUDE!...
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