& Thursday, January 12, 2006
Bitch In Total Control Of Herself
Itz 5:08pm rite nw.Juz woke up.Dint slp e whole morn.Was on e fone wif penyu tryin ma bez 2 make him stae n cryin ma eyez out @ e same tym.He meanz alot 2 mi.Hez e bestest guy fren I hv on dis earth.Hez been dhere 4 mi countless tymz n I've been dhere 4 him 2.I don wanna c him go awae.Watz ma lyf witout him?Itz a piece of shit!
Lyf's a bitch!I tot dat 2006 wil bring happi memoriez 4 mi n dat I finalli cn run awae frm ma probz in 2005.Bt NO!I tink 2005 was a betta yr 4 mi.Itz juz e start of 2006 n it sux big tym!I cn onli imagine watz in store mi as e daezgo by.Ma lyfz sucha screw up rite nw.Nv felt dis wae b4.Rite nw,Im @ a loss.Dunno wat 2 do.If onli I had a skl 2 go 2.It wil help mi 4get abt maprobz.Seein ma frenz n buryin maself in ma bkz wil b sucha a gr8 distraction.Bt luk @ mi nw!I hv all e tym 2 brood ova ma silly prob.Slpin is e onli wae I cn 4get abt ma probz.Datz y I wake up late nowadaez.I wanna run awae frm all ma probz.1 gd ting dat came out:
Penyu has decided 2 stae!Yes!Hez stayin!OMG!!Im so happi!..Penyu tol mi 1 ting.He said itz nt worth waitin 4 Amy n dat I shld move on.Hw?I cnt bear 2 walk awae frm Amy wen I stil love him soo much.Penyu said dat I don deserve e mean treatment dat Amyz givin mi.I dunno wat 2 do.If I stae n wait,im waitin 4 nuttin n Im juz wastin ma freakin tym.If I chooz 2 let it burn,itz gonna hurt mi sooo much knowin dat I dint try ma bez in dis rltnshp.A few more daez wil b our 1-mth anniversary bt I guez we wun hv e chance 2 celebrate it cx Im walkin awae rite nw.Itz juz a matter of tym b4 I do.I juz nid tym 2 pluck up enuf courage.I noe dat ma lyfz screwd up rite nw cx of Amy.Bt datz juz e wae it is.Im gonna change it NW.I hafta do dis.Itz 4 ma own gd.Im nt gonna watch maself goin dwn e drain cx of som bastard.Im a BITCH!Bitch in total control of herself.Datz e wae itz gonna b frm nw onwardz.I aint lettin no nigga intrude wif ma lyf n rule it 4 mi.Ma world is abt mi,ma family,ma catz n ma homies.FRENZ R 4EVA.BOIZ R WATEVA!Datz e wae tingz r gonna b frm nw.I'll hv total control of maself.Im willin 2 put ma lyf on e line 4 ma frenz bt nv 4 ma nigga.Dey aint worth ma tym,money or tearz.Im a fighter n 4eva I'll b..
Amy,u cn juz bounce outta ma lyf rite nw!I don nid u @ all.Ur onli addin pain n sufferin.Watz e use of u stayin if u onli treat mi lyk a piece of shit!I deserve a betta guy den u.Walk out n nv cum bak!!!
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